Nick Cave

to be
minimalist
is best

no words
I write
could capture

a desolation
that brings consolation
in a truly Ignatian sense

but if I had to
refer to
just one lyric

on pain of death

it would be
forevermore
“I don’t believe in an interventionist God”

my heart feels

strangely warmed
within
each and every time

 

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The Screaming Melons

you could say
I was a die-hard fan

at both of their gigs
they banged out the blues
in a feelgood style

I loved them for their name
dreamed of being a part
jealous of their fashion
I bought a blues harp

I could not make it wail
I could not make it moan
like Pete
like Sonny Boy

in my mouth
all tuneless and useless
all teeth and gums

so I salute
those Screaming Melons
the joy their blues bought
in all too few moments

and yes
in flights of fancy
still dream
of making harmonicas
talk

copyright a shyvicar April 2020

 

Bill

you played guitar

a child’s toy
plucked
strummed
singing silently away
music inside your head

in turn I
played halting chords
Morrisey and Marr’s
catalogue
stretching and waiting
but sat on the floor

you couldn’t hear

dissonance
a weight of shyness
mis-placed sevenths
strung to a tune

I couldn’t hear

your melodies
spirit of inspiration
take on the world
lost to silence

hearing and all speech
impaired

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I want to be……

the poet of mediocrity
for the mediocre age
using mediocre language
to vent my mediocre rage

I’ll plagiarise and sanitise
anything good that comes to hand
I’ll be
a bootleg Byron
a paper thin Plath
a Heaney hologram

I’ll take endless selfies
highlighting my golden pen
I’ll sit crane-like
but just right
to hide my paunch
and then….

I’ll declare war

in mediocrity
an expert I will be
sit on sofas
strictly dance in loafers
ice-skate with gophers
a rhyming book
open on my knee

from the east to the west
I’ll be on all the shows
divide opinion
boost the ratings
punching Piers on the nose

whilst in a hand cart
the world goes to hell
fanned by
climate change
brexit bitterness
all my complicity
as well

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Leaf – a movement in ten words

ripped

              asunder

                               hurled

                                             aloft

                                                     twisted

                                                     winded

                                           obtruded

                             wounded

            autumnally

bled

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Husthwaite

they let me stay up.

hidden behind a curtain
motionless but breathing
my sister returning to bed
perplexed
by an unexplained absence

it happened at Kate’s cottage
Husthwaite
Yorkshire
God’s own country
God’s own world
as good, bad and ugly
adorned a black and white screen.

I will not forget
staying up
secretly watching
Clint, Eli and Lee Van
acting out a tale
operatic in its proportions

To recall that moment –

when years ago
I was thought almost grown
to watch
the suffering of war
to hear music I instantly loved
love now
much as way back when

a score to a brutal violence
that bruised a spaghetti wilderness
where good, bad and ugly
lived cheek by jowl
in the heart of each one
without a devil in sight

– makes me yearn to live it again
exactly as it was

perfect

a boys own adventure
where a twelve year old
experienced a kind of heaven

Eli was my favourite
Clint didn’t seem
– good
not in a way twelve years on earth
understood

older and maybe wiser
I understand
I think
the irony
Eli hurtling around a cemetery
a strange
desperate dance to music
looking for a grave

singled out
for the showdown to come
between good
bad and ugly
in each one
no devil in sight

and there they stood
those three
looking death straight in the face

I thought

but Clint wasn’t playing
chess

heaven on the street

I caught a glimpse of heaven today
on a glasgow city street
for the angels were out
busking

I passed them
family in tow
with hopes high of a holy grail
in some entertainment exchange
at the end of the row

they looked like human beings
those angels
their faces a halo
of scrumptious
luscious
mouth-watering
ingenuity

playing guitars
their faces shone so
two young women
singing of love
and loves lost
in harmony
outside the shopping precinct

and standing in mid-air
as still as still
an angel without wings
hovering

he had the shoppers on the go
whipping their hands
underneath
beneath
below his boots
as white as snow
hoping to catch hold of
angelic secrets
as wingless
he air-stood
motionless
emotionless
alone

I caught a glimpse of heaven today
on a glasgow city street
some angels
without heads
it perturbed my daughter so
no beatific smile
purely empty air
no sparkling blue eyes
just glassless glasses
underneath pitch black bowler hat
with white gloved hand
offering out God’s peace

I caught a glimpse of hell today
on a glasgow city street
a desperate preacher man
ranting in the round
of death and destruction
ten to the pound
but “jesus saves us from aliens”
went unnoticed

for the angels had done their work
on that glorious meritorious day
and no devil of a preacher man
could take heaven away

In Auckland Castle Chapel

RICHARDUS TREVOR
dressed in white marble
ingrained with dust
resplendent on episcopal throne
gestures us look
at the book
of blank pages

RICHARDUS TREVOR
his achievements
carved in some alien tongue
nestle under his feet
lest I forget
what he wants me to think
that he was
that he is
and ever shall be

RICHARDUS TREVOR
he’s not some Georgian navvy
tossed in an unmarked grave
whose story untold is all mystery
whose space
in the cosmic unfurling
has no chapter
no page reference
no name

but in that enforced embrace
which no statue of marble records
where the grass now lies undisturbed
where the trees dance in time to the wind
I sense all mystery matters
regret a history unseen
feel distaste at bishops
with blank pages
demanding honour
importance
immortality

Dunstanburgh

we walked to Northumberland’s Avalon
to the ruins of the Joyous Garde
a rival to Mallory’s Bamburgh
a poem now battered and scarred

once dressed in redolent beauty
had lost all Arthurian sheen
now a bare husk on the headland
poignant still, but with a different mien

we walked past wind hardened sheep
by the rocks that they call Cushat Stiel
up the slope to a heritage gatehouse
to discover if ruins still feel

we were not alone in our wandering
the fields were crowded that day
with fathers, mothers,
sisters, brothers
uncles, aunts,
friends and lovers
babes in arms
dogs wearing muzzles
searching for a quality of time
amid work-life balance insecurity

I gazed upon the ruins
this once great poem in stone
that declared its faith in King Arthur
that Earl Thomas was Arthur come home

but time rips our words and worlds apart
like a wild north-east autumn sea
beats and bruises them
pommels and pummels them
drenches and drowns them
wears them down until
only vestiges are left

amidst autumns of wistful rambles
by the rocks they call Cushat Stiel
with aunts and uncles,
fathers, mothers
dogs on leads
and missing lovers