Charles Tomlinson

Mike
all good wishes
words
written on water

Obituary
with candid regrets
rippled
I didn’t know

Blue
leaden white lettering
shelfed
hard to find

Guilt
at words unread
overlooked
streams uncharted

Shipped
a reluctant letter
feared
affirmative response

Tepid
questions by rote
trickling
off the floor

Listened
swimming different strokes
wanting
Seamus Heaney

Broken
on youthful pomposity
shipwrecked
by jaundiced stares

Words
written on water
evoke
these former façades

 

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Morrissey

incremental to my college days
alternative to the copperfield boys
motorbike helmets
drunken fists
you offered another way to live

i wasn’t for fighting
standing tough
smirking over mammary glands
around the streets of Cheltenham
where I studied religion and lived.

i saw you
“The Smiths” at the Apollo
bought a ticket
caught the bus
sat next to siouxsie’s aspiring twin
never spoke
made no fuss

contradicting my christian tutor
shyness was nice
it was no sin
something to celebrate
extroversion should not always win

made me miserable?
my heart skipped as you sang your lines
helped me challenge stereotypes
changing perspectives on life.

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The Church of England Today

leadership
new messiahs
bandwagon

church
scandals
dwindling disciples

take course
down pills
super- vicar every four hours

convince you
divine dictatorship
the way

get power
get glory
put conscience away

proscribed dose
hook-line
sinker

leadership leadership
only way
church of england today

leadership leadership
peter ball
church of england today

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(first draft whilst listening to “The Teardrop Explodes”)

election 2017

purile debate
gagging for air
left right
talk about a
britain no longer there

this isn’t the 1950’s
empire has long gone
this isn’t the 1970’s
‘jimmy savile’
words that  say it all

prim proper may
bearded corbyn
had their day
get the feather dusters
brush cobwebs away

a dead press
rages against dying light
desperate for sensation
disaster
to halt the night

vine and maitliss
roll naked on the floor
flash of manly chest
a nip slip
will viewers watch once more?

internet full
naked images of them
fake as debates
in the 2017
election

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updated whilst listening to “The Icicle Works”.

 

Joie de Vivre

your joie de vivre
annoys me
so fake
in that usual way
that comes with the territory
called mission

I’m not really sure
that I am one
for abundant living
whatever that is

I need a bit of mystery
to be plagued by doubts
to catch a glimpse
of something far too wonderful
to be boxed in a god slot

music fans enjoying the moment
christine slip sliding across the floor
a well turned phrase
a malt lightly touching my lips

I don’t want to look at the world
with blinkers on
to see my fellow humans
as hopelessly lost
in need of being saved

life is too screwed up
for such easy answers
to be read straight off the page

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Steelworks

there’s a tescos now
where the steelworks stood
all glass and girders
clad in wood
cathedral of commercial revolution

and as much as we mythologise
what went on before
so we look down
at the priests
upon this temple floor
serving the commercial revolution

she smiles
is polite
what else can I say
like some desperate paparazzo
I sought her out today
chose her for her looks
as she merrily beeps away

and the sacred words?
– you’ve saved £1.40
– are you collecting vouchers for pans
-how many bags have you used
-have you had your clubcard scanned
at the service of commercial revolution

is it because they’re mostly women
that I dehumanize her so?
the bishops at the steelworks
were hardly saints
its well known…..
and conditions for their priests?
well leave that one alone
because we despise
the commercial revolution

there’s a tescos now
where the steelworks stood
all glass and girders
clad in wood
cathedral of commercial revolution

Mersehead

what would you do?
I say

shadows
carry my voice away
upwards
and out
across the solway

she has come to a stop
all around the shadows fly
outstretched arms
anticipating outstretched wings

I’d freak out
her reply
as delicately missing
the shadows
darken a post sunset sky

better than any human pilot
these nocturnal aviators fly
so close
and yet
though darkness surrounds
it is all light to them

It’s time to go
I say anxious
just in case
one of these shadows should land

but I am thinking
of what humans do
these are bats

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Jess

a whisp of a lisp
or flight of poetic fancy
as I stand
debit card in hand
waiting in the queue

a fringe
of disparate lengths
a fed-up face
but best of all
a plait
coiled on her shoulder
a protector
ready to attack
wrap itself constrictor-like
around every rude customer
sqeezing the very swear words out of them

she looks disinterested
I take my turn
a long day perhaps
the tired tedium of the evening shift
in the 24 hour store
that never shuts its doors

– do you need help with your packing –
my few paltry items
seeming
too much for me to bear
useless man

– no thank you –
I say
it’s polite convention suggesting
I hope
humanity

in that brief exchange
in those pre-destined words
I sense warmth
a feint lisp of whisper
or flight of poetic fancy
as I wonder
what snogging her would be like
under the stars
hand in hand
on the sand
of Scarborough’s South Bay
are you the one that I’ve been waiting for?

I know I will never see Jess again
a chance encounter
a brief encounter
without smoke
guard’s whistle
steam train
an eyeful of grit

I am not Trevor Howard
She is not Celia Johnson
I am mid-life crisis
she is still young
with a life full of other men to meet

I am left
I walk away
a self- packed bag
thoughts of other brief encounters
randomness in life
God filled human beings
I will never snog
or hold hands with
by Scarborough’s star-lit sea.

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